I'm just number 2

How come even though he tells me I'm the one. I still feel like number 2 or even 3. I feel like Im not his first call. Idk how to explane it but I just feel like I'm not the first person he thinks about . Or I'm not the one he cares most about. I'm just Errr. Like he deleted his old myspace page and got a new one. I know its just myspace but the first thing he thought about was putting up Amanda's pic. And the first person he sent a friend request to was carrie and amanda. Then he was like "ooh yeah I couldnt find you so you can add me right" wtf? Well 2 of my pics were in where is pics are but I told him I dont want them on his page. I might be his girlfriend but I'm not the first girl he thinks. &I know this is bad to say but if I keep feeling like Im not number 2 or 3. I might need to find someone who thinks Im number 1. I just want me to be the first thing on his mind for once. I want him to think about how I feel for once. Or just someone. I want someone to think of me first put me b4 them. But whatever. I'll get over it just like I get over everything else.